I wantTo replace my breakdownsWith breakthroughs;Emotional momentsOf much less frequencyAnd much more decency.Moments which enable, in me,A much kinder sense of peace:A type of serenityWhich provides a space for relaxation,Rather than a type of calmForced onBy frantic desperationOr chronic exhaustion.I wantTo appreciate more secondsOf stark realizationThat I am alive,Without hating the actOf trying so hard …



It's on these days that gravity feels as though it is deliberately trying to pull me down harder; when my hip-bones feel as though they are being crushed against the surface upon which they lie.