silent

I just feel kind of ... Quiet now. It's not really a calmness, Nor a sense of being at ease. It's not like that. My brain just feels a bit quieter And it's really nice. I like when I get to be entirely alone. Everyone is asleep around me, In another room -- In another …

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Grief For Younger Me’s

He calls out my Name From the other room And I assume Anger. Frantic --- tremble --- cold sweat, Teeth clenched, Gut wrenched, Immediately prepared for the anticipated blast of unexpected yet ultimately inevitable attack. I pull back. Remember, That's not my life anymore. My world spins a Moment more Before I take a deep …

Deliberately, A Raisin

What would you say If you could hold a mountain Between your fingertips? A mountain So small It could feed a fish? A mountain that Could mimic — perfectly — the constant Noise in your head; That could tickle you like A lover, yet push Against the lies between your teeth With the bittersweet Vengeance …

This.

I want To replace my breakdowns With breakthroughs; Emotional moments Of much less frequency And much more decency. Moments which enable, in me, A much kinder sense of peace: A type of serenity Which provides a space for relaxation, Rather than a type of calm Forced on By frantic desperation Or chronic exhaustion. I want …

Gravity

It's on these days that gravity feels as though it is deliberately trying to pull me down harder; when my hip-bones feel as though they are being crushed against the surface upon which they lie.